Lauren had another dance competition. They did ok. It wasn't their best showing. Hopefully TOPS will be better. As long as they are having a good time that's all that really matters.
School is going ok. I get my test results from the last test tonight. I didn't feel that great about it when I left. Surprisingly I felt I did ok on the essay portion, its the multiple choice that have me worried.
Brannon and I miss our dog Whiskey terribly. We find comfort in the fact that she no longer hurts, but there is definitely a void, especially when we go to sleep each night. Whiskey had her spot in our bedroom and now it just seems empty without her there. I miss the way she would come and check on me on my side of the bed first thing when she would come in after a potty break every morning. She was the sweetest dog.
I've been trying to declutter again. I go in waves. Over the Christmas holiday I didn't do much. I had started my 1 box a day, but that quickly got shelved. It seemed that every afternoon after work there was choir practice to go to, or laundry to get caught up on, presents to shop for and then wrap. Parties to attend. Birthdays. More shopping and wrapping and decorating. Maybe I'm just getting old, but it seems to be harder and harder to do Christmas every year. I'm always out of energy. Maybe I just don't have a good plan. I hope that next year will be better. I've been in the house a year now and I'm just now starting to feel settled.
I find that everything I am doing this winter soon to be spring I do in comparison to what I was doing at this time last year. I was thinking the other day that I have too many boxes to go through right now. But then I remember what I was doing last year at this time. We had found this house and we were packing up boxes in the other house and in Brannon's duplex. We had a pod in the drive way and we were trying to get all the banking stuff done. It seems like a lot compared to what I am doing right now and as soon as I think about that, I feel so much better about everything. This spring is going to be so much quieter than last. I will not be planning a wedding this spring. I will not be trying to pack up one house and be moving into another. I will not be merging my things with 2 other households of things. I will not be spending every waking free moment at the other house remodeling. I will not be trying to figure out where to put things, what to get rid of, and where to even start. I will be able to plant flowers and still have time to water them because I am not trying to care for two households. I am so much farther along than I was at this same time last year.
If I have just repeated myself over and over again, I do apologize. Maybe it's because my head feels like it's full of sand. Yeah, we'll blame that.

Feel better soon.
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